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A Rock n A Hard Place

Juz received the Medical Booking and other NS stuff from MINDEF today..
Seems I have to do some online admin stuff on 4th April..
Haix...
Time flies by so fast...
I still rmb the day b4 my 5th bro got enlisted,
I was 11 then..
Well, where I'm right now, I juz wanna get thru with my A's and start a life...
Soon..

Anywayz, I have an appointment on Monday @ Mount E.
Gotta make up my mind by then on when I wanna do e op...

Twistin' at 11:10 pm

Warm Springs

I've been MIA since Monday...
Doc Lee told me it's some sort of nerve smth smth trauma or wadeva... Couldn't understand all those medical terms, let alone trying to read his handwriting Lol..
Simply, I've spent these days struggling to get up, let alone walk around the house..
The pain is getting worse but I've endured it for 5 years and counting...
The good news is that my surgery will be schedule sometime on the first week of June...
Right now, I can only imagine what life will be like without that "nagging" pain on my back...
Sometimes when I look around at you guys, my friends, I sorta envy you...
You can run around without the fear of your legs going numb...
You can play soccer (or any other sports for that matter) without a worry in your head...
But at least now, all I can do is wait...
Wait until June...
The painkillers and the nerve "drugs" aren't really doing their jobs.. I think.. either that or I can't wait to walk properly again...
Every morning for the past few days, I'm darn grateful that I can feel (even if it's a slight feeling) my feet..
They've been numb, but as the pain returns, I'm thankful. For the pain means I can still feel and control my legs...

I watched "Warm Springs" on HBO Signature this afternoon...
It's the life story of FDR after he suffered from polio and how he struggled to:
1. Walk like any normal person again, or failing that
2. Be accepted as a human being, regardless of his disabilities..

There's alot more to be learnt from his exemplary display of endurance and most of which never ceases to amaze me (in my current state)

Somehow, I keep praying that all will go well,
And I'll be able to walk again without the pain...

Twistin' at 6:16 pm

Crash Reality

My bro bought Crash the movie today.. I've heard alot 'bout it winning awards and all, but juz hadn't had the time to watch it... until tonite

Basically, it's a movie about one thing: Reality, esp when dealing with stereotypes and race issues.

I dunnoe why, but these days have been kinda harsh and somehow the amazing content of this movie speaks out to me

It shows how with hate and ignorance, you'll get nothing back, except for more hate and ignorance... and destruction...

Being of a particular circumstance where I am, somehow the way the protagonists in the film reminds me of such circumstance...

That no matter how hard you try to "teach" people, they'll choose to remain ignorant...

Juz like in the movie where one of the protagonist's shop is beset by vandals, who mistook him as an Arab, whereas in the first place, he's a Persian...

Same goes here... I mean, it's not more than once where people in the street have mistaken the terms "Malay" and "Muslim" as being one and the same...
And it's not more than once where I had to remind them...
But I too have to remind myself,
that the initiative to learn lies on the hands of that person(s),
that I can tell my Lord that I've done my part,
and that such person(s) choose to remain ignorant...

Somehow it seems ironic and abit clichéd to say "I have a dream..."

So I shall part this entry with this words:

I'll die happy and fulfilled,
knowing that I did my best to teach others of what I've known,
that whatever knowledge I have,
I've passed it on,
for I prefer naught a legacy of wealth nor material possesions,
but a legacy of truth and wisdom...

Twistin' at 10:39 pm

Ticked Off...

Nearly freakin' exploded from rage juz now...
Was so damn pissed off that I couldn't help but walk away.
I mean, could you at least show some BASIC RESPECT...
Not only did it happened today, but the fact that it has been happening since 2 mths ago and that I barely raged out today juz shows how long I had tolerated your obnoxious, selfish behaviour...
You should try be a human being for once and respond POLITELY when SPOKEN TO...
Be grateful that I'd talk to you politely, but today was the breaking point...
Not only were you rude, you dared say all the Fitnah, all the lies...
Thank God I had real friends who heard your loud-mouth, malcontent, psychotic rantings...

Basically, I could no longer stand you anymore. You're past the point of me having to be polite to you...

And to the other peeps, I'm sorry guys...
Sorry to ruin your fun time today...
Sorry that your day and my day was ruined by that "human"

Simply, I pass on this words:
You want respect from others, learn to show respect to others first.
After all, we're all human beings, no human being can claim superiority over another human being.
Only God, our Creator, can make such statement.

Twistin' at 3:38 pm

So few stood against so many...

2nd Day of the crapped up "holiday" lessons...
The only good thing bout today's lessons was that during our "make-up GP" lesson, I found out I pwned the GP assignment... LoL
Well, chan got one mark less than mine but since he's off to poly...
But doesn't mean I can get complacent... Muz work harder for e other subjects...
Anyways, supposed to have phototaking today with e SC peeps, but got postponed to tmr... So, I ended up going to PS for lunch with Yuanwei & Don...
Since I wanna watch 300 since last week but didn't get a chance to, the 3 of us ended up watching 300...
If you've read ancient greek history about the Spartans' stand at Thermopylae, you'd more or less know how the story will end up...
Basically, I wanna watch it coz of the cool factor... 300 Spartans, going to battle with rock music in e background.. And the slow-mo battle scenes... Man... Damn cool... Totally worth my 6 bucks...
And it was not only about gore in battle, it shows clearly the important message of never giving up one's freedom, no matter the costs... And that bickering and senseless politicking does more harm than good...
Simply, it's kinda hard to say it all in words...
It's a must watch movie... And I may watch it again... Failing that, I wanna watch Letters From Iwo Jima...

Twistin' at 7:34 pm

The Littlest Things...

I've been in and out of Mt. E. Hospital thruout e whole week... Doc Lee told me that my whole left side feels like "crap" coz of my dislocation back last November...
To add "insult" to that injury, I fell on Monday coz of a stupid outcrop of rock beside e road near my hse... Damn PTP TC... "Good" news is that my fall didn't entirely sever my spinal nerves... LoL... So I'm stuck with pain, rather than total paralysis...
Went back for some kind of "preliminary" check up again today...
I've made up my decision, go for surgery after A's...

Anywayz, kinda "sian-ded" that I didn't really get a chance to see fusion nite... Spent like the whole of last weekend planning it... Hopefully all went well...
So far, I haven't heard any news from there...

Twistin' at 9:31 pm

Dee-Liteful

It's been almost over a week since I blogged and it's mainly thanx to my 2 SPAs these week... And no.. it's not Spas as in the mud bath, skin treatment, etc... It's my Chem and Bio practical assessment... Sianz...

And I got my ML A's result back... Suffice to say, I'm neither pleased nor anguished by the results... It's more or less what I'd expected.. D

Well, I've made up my decision since I took the pprs, which was not to retake if given the option to...

At least now I can concentrate more on my H2s and my econs...

Well, maybe after 2nd orientation...

Which reminds me, 5 days left... Maybe after 2nd O, I'll have more time to myself... Maybe...

Twistin' at 10:28 am